Let it happen.

Not the best of days today. UCLA called me yesterday with information about my audition, but I lost reception and didn't get to talk to the guy again until today. Found out that my audition is this Saturday at 4:20PM. I was supposed to get an e-mail in Decemer/early January but I didn't so I had no idea until today. So I now have three days to prepare. I practiced a little bit earlier but my lip started hurting. I went on the Department of Music website and discovered I also have a questionnaire and a personal statement to turn in. I might just turn in my original personal statement because I wrote about music anyway. I'll see. It just really upset me that all of this was thrown in my face at the last minute. I guess it's my fault because I should have researched what I had to do but I didn't realize that I had to. I'm sure if I had gotten the e-mail, this would not have been a problem. Oh well, what can I do?

Maybe it's just due to all this trouble I'm having with becoming a music performance major [the stuff with UCLA, UCI not accepting my instrument, UCSD not responding about an audition], but I've been really considering making another area my focus. I've always considered Psychology and I still am. But I still can't answer the question: What am I going to do with psychology? I began to really get into Economics so I'm considering Business Economics. That stuff is really interesting me, probably because the economy is in such a horrible place right now haha. Look at it this way: by the time the economy picks itself back up, I'll be rich! [:

I want to express myself and evaluate my thoughts and feelings about my relationships with the people around me, but I guess you could say I'm afraid to. When I start thinking of this stuff, a thousand thoughts come rushing into my head. Some of my friends, I can't even look at the same anymore. But this is just life and I know that no matter what it comes down to, I know who I can count on. I know that even I am not the best friend there is; there are days [like these past few days] that I just don't feel like talking much. Hopefully my closest friends know that if they needed me, I'd be there for them in a heartbeat. Well, most of my friends anyway. The true friends.

I'm not sure where these thoughts are coming from, but there they are. I guess I think about stuff like this every single day, I just tend to keep them inside.

I'm getting tired, so I think I'll just stop here.

Note[s] to self:
- FAFSA
- Scholarships
- Begin AP Testing review